Random Thoughts

Summer is boring but I am not looking forward to going back to school. It is horrible. I do not like school. I feel lonely at school. I feel like I'm not being accepted at school. Although I'm sure they're not pushing me away, I am sure they're not reaching out to me either. I don't understand them and they don't understand me. I am an alien who studies and keep up with good grades. I am a Martian because I don't go clubbing. What can I do to find people who are like me? Where can I find youths like the ones in MYF? Youths like the ones I had in GRSS? Youths who don't think studying is lame or talking to teachers is weird.

I want to go back. I want my friends back. I want to be talking about random things and being all laid back. Not having to be so sensitive about racial issues. No longer being seen as "that Asian girl". I want my house back. I want everything that I've grown so familiar with given back to me. But I can't. I have to be here. I have to live here, and get used to everything here. I can't ever find my way back. I am stranded out here in this huge, busy place. Someone, help me.

Help me, I am lost. I want to go home.

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