Rants

Summer is coming everyone! That means I'll be out of school in no time! Woohoo!

Now it might seem like a good thing but it is not. Why? Cuz I am fat lar. What else? I mean, what good is summertime if I am all flabby and unattractive? I can't go to the beach or swimming lar! So embarrassing. =(

You'd think that after all those badminton practice I'd get thinner, but I did not. SIGH. Nothing's changed! I think the only thing it did was made me more fit, and keep the extra pounds off. Cuz I think i've been eating twice as much when I started badminton practice.

OMG, I am super frustrated lah! I just read all these testimonials about how people lose weight and I am super mad k? Why is it like so easy for others to lose weight but not me? I've seen lots and lots of fat/overweight ppl lose weight (whom I shall not mention cuz they will kill me for calling them fat before) and become WAAAAAAAY thinner than me! Am super pissed.

Don't say EXERCISE LA! Cuz I did~ Hello~ badminton? And don't say "ONLY FEW MONTHS NIA...GIVE IT MORE TIME." Cuz it's crap i tell you. I've been jogging all of form 4 and sort of dieting at the same time but I NEVER lost weight! Okay, I know there's going to be people saying, "you looked fine" but no I do not. I fret about all the cellulite I have okay! Yes, I have cellulite. I dun care if you say they're not cellulite Hannah cuz I think it is. XD I RAN A WHOLE YEAR did badminton for half a year and I am still fat. wth.

Which part of me is fat? My legs lah, where else? Why do you think i'm always wearing jeans or long pants? Another reason is, I have super squat and tree-trunk-like legs, and I dislike them. They never appear that way cuz I am super smart at choosing jeans that make them look normal but they are NOT. I think my legs are 6 inches shorter than Hannah's despite being the same height as she is. Even Rena's legs are as long as mine, and she is waaay shorter than me! GRRR.

Another reason I dislike them is cuz, I have a super long body, which is kinda thin also if I might add (ho ho, this is actually a bonus for me but..), which makes my leg look obese okay I am not kidding wth. I love my super long body, but it's really throwing everything out of proportion. =(

So, I am super mad cuz I cannot wear sundresses which are super pretty due to squat, tree trunk like legs. Plus, having nonexistent ankles only make matters worse. ARGH!

I HATE ALL OF YOU WITH LONG/NORMAL LEGS.

HATE!

My entry shall end at this note. Chao

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