Deadlines. Contracts. Scholarship...this is college?
Argh. The time has come when one has to start applying to colleges. I knew applying for colleges is somewhat bothersome, but I didn't know it was THIS confusing.
I never felt like college is near until I've gotten a bunch of letters from colleges in the mails asking me to apply to their colleges. Why is that colleges you're not particular interested in always offer you scholarships and colleges you aim for doesn't even know you exist?
Also facing a dilemma: Should I stay in CA or go out of state?
I don't see the difference in tuition by staying in Cali since I'm still considered an out-of-state student. Did you know? If were a resident I'd only pay $8700 but if I'm a non-resident I have to pay like $30,000? How many more thousands is that? *faints*
I know I'm not a bad student, in fact, my GPA and report card says otherwise. Yet, I often doubt my abilities and intellect. I'm trying to find a reason why I don't fully believe in myself even when I know I'm at least one of the top. Sometimes other people seem so perfect that you worry about being too proud of yourself, you know?
Which leads me to ask this: Do smart people take pride in being smart and worry less about their performance? Or do they strive harder to make sure they're always on top?
I really wish I knew what they were thinking.
I never felt like college is near until I've gotten a bunch of letters from colleges in the mails asking me to apply to their colleges. Why is that colleges you're not particular interested in always offer you scholarships and colleges you aim for doesn't even know you exist?
Also facing a dilemma: Should I stay in CA or go out of state?
I don't see the difference in tuition by staying in Cali since I'm still considered an out-of-state student. Did you know? If were a resident I'd only pay $8700 but if I'm a non-resident I have to pay like $30,000? How many more thousands is that? *faints*
I know I'm not a bad student, in fact, my GPA and report card says otherwise. Yet, I often doubt my abilities and intellect. I'm trying to find a reason why I don't fully believe in myself even when I know I'm at least one of the top. Sometimes other people seem so perfect that you worry about being too proud of yourself, you know?
Which leads me to ask this: Do smart people take pride in being smart and worry less about their performance? Or do they strive harder to make sure they're always on top?
I really wish I knew what they were thinking.
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