Unexplainable loss
I know there are more and more people in LDR relationships nowadays, and I wonder if they feel the same way as I do?
Each visit your significant other pays you is, of course, a jolly experience, but what about when he leaves you, or when you leave her? Do you just part with smiles on your faces with a great sense of satisfaction or do you linger, as happy as you may be, and wish that the time you have with one another could just be a little, tiny bit longer even if it was for a second?
From my personal experience, I would say that I enjoy and cherish every visit he has made, but with each visit it gets harder and harder to see him leave. Why not make his visits left often then? I would, but the separation between us would eventually drive me into my insanity as well.
It is selfish to say that no one understands the pain and frustrations I feel in a LDR so I guess I'll limit them to people who have never been in or experienced one. It is unfair to say that they do not understand the difficulties of going through one, but it is safe to say that they have never felt it firsthand, and that's what makes the difference. I don't know how to explain myself, even though you can imagine what it might be like to be in a LDR, I believe that it is somewhat quite impossible to imagine how you would feel in one. And I'll say this, it is no bed of roses, just a bed of thorns.
I try not to let it show, but a LDR is tiring and it takes up lots of time and energy. Frustration is a common feeling especially when your distances are miles apart while your times are hours apart. Well, there's always Windows Live Messenger! Yes, and though I thank the wonderful people who came up with such programs (skype is one of them), the large gap in time difference still makes it hard to arrange a time to chat. Even harder yet when they do not show up at the arranged time, or for weeks even, and you have no way of contacting them to find out why and how they are doing.
If it's hard, why bother getting into one anyway? I ask myself the same question everyday.
LDRs are definitely not ideal. They might not be worth it , but to me he is.
I know I am being as emotional as can be, but there is just no room or time for that in my daily living. So, my dear poor bloggy, I am pouring out my feelings and frustrations to you.
Each visit your significant other pays you is, of course, a jolly experience, but what about when he leaves you, or when you leave her? Do you just part with smiles on your faces with a great sense of satisfaction or do you linger, as happy as you may be, and wish that the time you have with one another could just be a little, tiny bit longer even if it was for a second?
From my personal experience, I would say that I enjoy and cherish every visit he has made, but with each visit it gets harder and harder to see him leave. Why not make his visits left often then? I would, but the separation between us would eventually drive me into my insanity as well.
It is selfish to say that no one understands the pain and frustrations I feel in a LDR so I guess I'll limit them to people who have never been in or experienced one. It is unfair to say that they do not understand the difficulties of going through one, but it is safe to say that they have never felt it firsthand, and that's what makes the difference. I don't know how to explain myself, even though you can imagine what it might be like to be in a LDR, I believe that it is somewhat quite impossible to imagine how you would feel in one. And I'll say this, it is no bed of roses, just a bed of thorns.
I try not to let it show, but a LDR is tiring and it takes up lots of time and energy. Frustration is a common feeling especially when your distances are miles apart while your times are hours apart. Well, there's always Windows Live Messenger! Yes, and though I thank the wonderful people who came up with such programs (skype is one of them), the large gap in time difference still makes it hard to arrange a time to chat. Even harder yet when they do not show up at the arranged time, or for weeks even, and you have no way of contacting them to find out why and how they are doing.
If it's hard, why bother getting into one anyway? I ask myself the same question everyday.
LDRs are definitely not ideal. They might not be worth it , but to me he is.
I know I am being as emotional as can be, but there is just no room or time for that in my daily living. So, my dear poor bloggy, I am pouring out my feelings and frustrations to you.
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