Passing thought

Was scrolling through Facebook when I was taking a short break from homework, and saw pictures of all my past classmates doing crazy adventurous things in their lives. Some of them doing things I'd never expected them to do. The school belle joining the US Navy, the nerds getting into b-boy dancing, the average girl-next door who cared more about being popular than her grades graduating from her masters...the list goes on. And I somehow feel so inadequate. Like, look at all these people venturing out of their comfort zones and doing all these amazing and exciting things. What am I doing with my life?

This feeling and thought are so fickle, I know. I caught myself halfway and reminded myself that it's Facebook. People only post the good stuff and leave out the bad ones, I included. 

I notice, though, that I tend to think negatively when I have everything going well for me. Funny how at times when I have little, I tend to look at the things I DO have, and feel appreciation and joy or contentment. And then when I seem to have everything going for me, I somehow focus on the little "bad" things that are "obstructing" my "complete happiness"...whatever that means. Everything is in quotations because it's all just what I perceive my life to be like, even though I know it's not.

I guess, for me, the glass is always half empty when I'm not thirsty, and half full when I'm thirsty. I am so fickle...but I suspect that a lot of you guys are like me too. Intuitively, it makes more sense to be fickle than to perpetually see the glass as either strictly half empty or half full, unless you have a very strong or fixed outlook on life to begin with. Which makes me wonder what makes humans so fickle. Are we really so driven by our instincts that fixing an outlook on life becomes so difficult? How do we train ourselves to see the glass as half full, even when we're not thirsty?

I mean, yeah, we can remind ourselves to think positively when that happens, but is there a way where we can train ourselves to instinctively think positively all the time? Or am I just a negative and ungrateful person until all things are taken away from me? XD 

Oh well. Break time's over. Will have to revisit this thought again some time later. 

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