Just so done with summer school
Ehhhhhhh, feeling kind of crappy lately. Perhaps doing both summer sessions in a row wasn't such a good idea after all, especially if one of the classes is an upper devision math proofs class.
I know I have to tell myself to keep pushing forward, that burning out right now is not a good idea, but a part of me has already given up trying hard. I'm not trying to fail the class obviously, but I'm not my usual "Alright, let's study hard and pull an A for session 2 as well!" self. I think that part of me was thrown out the window when summer session 1 ended.
I'm pretty proud of myself for pulling off an A+ in the Business Writing class, given that writing is not my strong suit despite my recent blogging saga. I thought that I'd fair better in math since it's more in line with my field of study, but nope. I'm really not feeling the groove lately. Perhaps the class is just too demanding, or maybe the lecturer's teaching style just doesn't suit my learning style. Either way, I'm failing on the homework portion of the class. *gasp* I know. I haven't turned in like 4 assignments because I was just too stressed out and decided to say "screw it" and take them as a loss.
Maybe I'm burned out, or maybe I've just been spoiled by the first session, where despite taking a 4 unit class, I still had time to cook, clean, exercise and give John enough care and affection quite regularly. This session, I feel like I'm forced to eat, live, breathe math. Yeah, I don't know if anyone can be so passionate about math to that point. Maybe if I was single I would. But who knows? I tend to have seasons where I work really hard towards something and then just burn out for a period of time. Another "obstacle" was that my family came to visit twice, and then the MIL's house burned down and had a lot of complications with claims and money grubbing tenants, and then the SIL had a wedding the week after. Yeah, just one thing after another every weekend, so I haven't been able to use the weekend to actually catch up on stuff I've neglected over the week for other normal life activities.
I don't want to take this class too seriously because after summer session ends, I only get a week's worth of break before the school year starts in full scale again. Imagine how much more burned out I'll be by then. Still, I'm kinda stressing out about making sure I make the cut to pass the class. I'm also beating myself up for not trying harder because I know that I have one more math class to take, and doing well in this class will definitely help me to excel in the other class later on. But when you feel this way, what DO you do? I can't really make a rational decision right now given how exhausted I've been, but I don't want to regret my lack of focus later on, yet I just can't seem to care. Get my drift? How do people pull through years and years of non-stop studying (i.e. taking classes every quarter all four years) with such good grades? What are they sacrificing in exchange? Is it worth it? How do they find the drive? I am so curious...
Sigh. I just have to keep reminding myself that in two weeks, I'll be out and done and wouldn't have to think about this class again until I take the continuing class. Oh boy, wish me luck.
(On the bright side, I'm typing this on my new MacBook Pro! That is another experience I will write about in separate post.)
I know I have to tell myself to keep pushing forward, that burning out right now is not a good idea, but a part of me has already given up trying hard. I'm not trying to fail the class obviously, but I'm not my usual "Alright, let's study hard and pull an A for session 2 as well!" self. I think that part of me was thrown out the window when summer session 1 ended.
I'm pretty proud of myself for pulling off an A+ in the Business Writing class, given that writing is not my strong suit despite my recent blogging saga. I thought that I'd fair better in math since it's more in line with my field of study, but nope. I'm really not feeling the groove lately. Perhaps the class is just too demanding, or maybe the lecturer's teaching style just doesn't suit my learning style. Either way, I'm failing on the homework portion of the class. *gasp* I know. I haven't turned in like 4 assignments because I was just too stressed out and decided to say "screw it" and take them as a loss.
Maybe I'm burned out, or maybe I've just been spoiled by the first session, where despite taking a 4 unit class, I still had time to cook, clean, exercise and give John enough care and affection quite regularly. This session, I feel like I'm forced to eat, live, breathe math. Yeah, I don't know if anyone can be so passionate about math to that point. Maybe if I was single I would. But who knows? I tend to have seasons where I work really hard towards something and then just burn out for a period of time. Another "obstacle" was that my family came to visit twice, and then the MIL's house burned down and had a lot of complications with claims and money grubbing tenants, and then the SIL had a wedding the week after. Yeah, just one thing after another every weekend, so I haven't been able to use the weekend to actually catch up on stuff I've neglected over the week for other normal life activities.
I don't want to take this class too seriously because after summer session ends, I only get a week's worth of break before the school year starts in full scale again. Imagine how much more burned out I'll be by then. Still, I'm kinda stressing out about making sure I make the cut to pass the class. I'm also beating myself up for not trying harder because I know that I have one more math class to take, and doing well in this class will definitely help me to excel in the other class later on. But when you feel this way, what DO you do? I can't really make a rational decision right now given how exhausted I've been, but I don't want to regret my lack of focus later on, yet I just can't seem to care. Get my drift? How do people pull through years and years of non-stop studying (i.e. taking classes every quarter all four years) with such good grades? What are they sacrificing in exchange? Is it worth it? How do they find the drive? I am so curious...
Sigh. I just have to keep reminding myself that in two weeks, I'll be out and done and wouldn't have to think about this class again until I take the continuing class. Oh boy, wish me luck.
(On the bright side, I'm typing this on my new MacBook Pro! That is another experience I will write about in separate post.)
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