I wish I could afford plastic surgery
When will I ever be rich enough to afford plastic surgery? I've been researching all these Korean clinics, and even though PS is already quite affordable in Korea, I can still barely afford. Sigh.
I guess I am just doomed to having small and droopy single eyelids for a few more years. And who knows? By then I might not even care anymore because I'd be a bustling mother who is more focused on her kid than her looks. Hahaha. But still, omg I want it I want it I want it I want it I want it!
I know the usual story most people spout when they go for surgery goes something like this, "I've ALWAYS HATED my [insert body part], and this is for me, and for my confidence, and for me to feel happy with myself. It is not for anyone (boys) or anything else (praise maybe?)." Tbh, I don't particularly hate my eyes, and I don't think my confidence takes a hit because of my single eyelids. Academic and tangible achievements play a larger role on my self-esteem level. The reason I want double eyelids is because I want to pull off the thin eyeliner to no eyeliner look without having it disappear when I open my eyes daaammiiitttt!! And using double eyelid tape is SO. MUCH. HASSLE. So much so that my makeup wearing days have taken a huge hit. My poor eyeshadows and makeup collection are just biting the dust as I speak...write? Barefaced all the way, errday. Also, they make me look a little sleepy. Anyway, yeah, I know my reasoning is so superficial, but whatever! Any kind of cosmetic surgery is superficial no matter how you spin it (unless you are a fire/chemical burn victim that is).
The funny thing about PS is that whenever someone says they want it, other people suddenly become some kind of qualified psychologist, and start spewing how the cause of this desire must be rooted in some dark, unknown, or twisted, past, and that the person should "learn to love themselves for who they are" and "don't let beauty standards define you". Yet, you rarely hear people going, "Oh, she must have been called unfashionable when she was a kid, or never accepted her identity in anything else, that's why she must always buy cute clothes." The HECK? If there are cute clothes and you can afford it, WHY NOT? Not everything is tied to deep dark roots. Humans are sometimes just that superficial. We like attractive things and want attractive things, and what one deems attractive vary from person to person.
And then there are the self-proclaimed highly confident people who "matured" and therefore have the right to lash out at these poor guys and girls at how "loserish" and how "low PS patients' self-esteems are". Proclaiming loudly and proudly how they are so glad they overcame their insecurities and learned to love themselves; hence, no one else should do surgery either. Supremacist much? I think these people are secretly bitter for not doing it because maybe someone else talked them out of it and they regretted, or they just didn't have the funds, so they wanna lessen the competition? Less pretty people = less competition. Hahaha. Okay lah, I know there are some earnest people out there (good for them), but I'm referring to the mean and condescending ones.
One thing I've encountered a lot after relaying my interest in eye surgery is that people will always say, "But why? You're eyes are fine! You are gorgeous." Why yes, thank you, I know. It's because I have awesome makeup skills. So I'll tell them it's the makeup and that I wanted to try different eyeliner looks, but they will always deny it with great passion and try to convince me otherwise. And then whenever I go out without eye tape or eye makeup, they will always say, "Why do you look so tired?" I swear this has happened more times than I can count. I don't hold any grudges against them, but don't so fervently argue about something and then flip back on your words can anot? *face palm*
Anyway, I looked up flight tickets and surgery costs, and it totals up to $3000+, not including lodging and food. I don't have that kind of money to splurge...especially since there have been talks of buying a house. Logically speaking, order or importance goes house > my eye surgery, so there goes my frivolous dream. Kapoof~! Sigh.
But I won't give up! Just have to study harder and make big bucks in the future, no? Hahahaha. Okay, random musings end.
I guess I am just doomed to having small and droopy single eyelids for a few more years. And who knows? By then I might not even care anymore because I'd be a bustling mother who is more focused on her kid than her looks. Hahaha. But still, omg I want it I want it I want it I want it I want it!
I know the usual story most people spout when they go for surgery goes something like this, "I've ALWAYS HATED my [insert body part], and this is for me, and for my confidence, and for me to feel happy with myself. It is not for anyone (boys) or anything else (praise maybe?)." Tbh, I don't particularly hate my eyes, and I don't think my confidence takes a hit because of my single eyelids. Academic and tangible achievements play a larger role on my self-esteem level. The reason I want double eyelids is because I want to pull off the thin eyeliner to no eyeliner look without having it disappear when I open my eyes daaammiiitttt!! And using double eyelid tape is SO. MUCH. HASSLE. So much so that my makeup wearing days have taken a huge hit. My poor eyeshadows and makeup collection are just biting the dust as I speak...write? Barefaced all the way, errday. Also, they make me look a little sleepy. Anyway, yeah, I know my reasoning is so superficial, but whatever! Any kind of cosmetic surgery is superficial no matter how you spin it (unless you are a fire/chemical burn victim that is).
The funny thing about PS is that whenever someone says they want it, other people suddenly become some kind of qualified psychologist, and start spewing how the cause of this desire must be rooted in some dark, unknown, or twisted, past, and that the person should "learn to love themselves for who they are" and "don't let beauty standards define you". Yet, you rarely hear people going, "Oh, she must have been called unfashionable when she was a kid, or never accepted her identity in anything else, that's why she must always buy cute clothes." The HECK? If there are cute clothes and you can afford it, WHY NOT? Not everything is tied to deep dark roots. Humans are sometimes just that superficial. We like attractive things and want attractive things, and what one deems attractive vary from person to person.
And then there are the self-proclaimed highly confident people who "matured" and therefore have the right to lash out at these poor guys and girls at how "loserish" and how "low PS patients' self-esteems are". Proclaiming loudly and proudly how they are so glad they overcame their insecurities and learned to love themselves; hence, no one else should do surgery either. Supremacist much? I think these people are secretly bitter for not doing it because maybe someone else talked them out of it and they regretted, or they just didn't have the funds, so they wanna lessen the competition? Less pretty people = less competition. Hahaha. Okay lah, I know there are some earnest people out there (good for them), but I'm referring to the mean and condescending ones.
One thing I've encountered a lot after relaying my interest in eye surgery is that people will always say, "But why? You're eyes are fine! You are gorgeous." Why yes, thank you, I know. It's because I have awesome makeup skills. So I'll tell them it's the makeup and that I wanted to try different eyeliner looks, but they will always deny it with great passion and try to convince me otherwise. And then whenever I go out without eye tape or eye makeup, they will always say, "Why do you look so tired?" I swear this has happened more times than I can count. I don't hold any grudges against them, but don't so fervently argue about something and then flip back on your words can anot? *face palm*
Anyway, I looked up flight tickets and surgery costs, and it totals up to $3000+, not including lodging and food. I don't have that kind of money to splurge...especially since there have been talks of buying a house. Logically speaking, order or importance goes house > my eye surgery, so there goes my frivolous dream. Kapoof~! Sigh.
But I won't give up! Just have to study harder and make big bucks in the future, no? Hahahaha. Okay, random musings end.
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