Sensing impending doom

I am going to fail. The actuarial exam is this upcoming Monday, and I've barely done ANY work or review because of a slew of things that decided to pop up. From needing to cook more often all of sudden because we're short on money, communicating back and forth with house contractors and real estate agents, to spending time with immediate family because visits are SO RARE.  (Vicky came to Cali this past week, and I just went to visit Ruth and Bryan the week before for her graduation.)

Yup. I am gonna fail. And it freaking costs me $225. Sigh.

I know I should be studying right now, but I just feel so downcast and needed to vent a little. Sigh. Well, will try my best! That's what I get for being too overly ambitious. I feel like God is forever giving me a sign that I need to slow down and stop being so unrealistic.

Okay, back to the grind. Wait for my "I failed" post next time.

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