So much to do, so little time
There are so many things I want to do. I want to draw and complete my unfinished sketches. I want to get a keyboard and practice the piano again. Perhaps I can play for the church's worship team someday? Speaking of playing for the church, I want to play drums for my dad's church too. In the meantime, I want to live a fit lifestyle all the way into my 90's (lol, if God permits me to live that long) and master all the tastiest and healthiest homemade recipes ever to keep up that kind of healthy lifestyle. Oh, did I forget to mention that I also want to work and make a substantial amount for me to do all the above? But I also want work-life to be just challenging enough for me to stay interested, but not so stressful to the point I don't have time for family and family vacations around the world. Oh yeah, I should probably get kids too if I want a family. And so that I can keep up with times and be a good example/mentor to my kids, I want to be updated in all the latest programming and technology as well. Most importantly, I want to be able to be a wonderful co-spiritual leader to my family alongside John.
...I'm sure there's something I've missed since I'm the kind that wants it all. Is it really impossible to do them all in one lifetime? Just typing all these out made me realized that this counts as a very first-world problem, but since I'm living in a first-world country, pondering such possibilities is not far from reasonable haha. Yes, I know I'm privileged...and somewhat idealistic, but I can't help it. I do tell myself to tone down my unrealistic expectations, and I do live quite simplistically as I write this, but that doesn't mean these thoughts don't boggle my mind every now and then. And then there are also times, like now, where I wonder: are they really THAT unrealistic?
I sometimes wonder if living till 100 years old with guaranteed health (as in no terminal illnesses) would be enough time to accomplish everything on my list. But given that there are so many moving variables, I doubt even one long, healthy lifetime is enough to cover every experience I desire, and as my experience and knowledge bank grows, I'm sure I'll be adding even more things to my bucket list. I suppose that's something only the soul can fulfill since our bodies cannot reach eternity.
So basically the issue boils down to lack of time. As such, we'd have to pick and choose carefully lest we waste precious time getting distracted by unnecessary drama and/or side quests (? Lol, too much gaming and can't think of the proper term) and derail ourselves from our goals and dreams. Even if we were to be extra focused, chances are we'd still have to scale down our ultimate lifelong dreams (e.g. winning the jackpot by simply picking up a random lotto that was dropped on the ground and staying anonymous after cashing out) simply because humans are not isolated creatures with a single function and outcome, but part of a larger network of complicated relationships.
All these have led me to think about wanting to be retired already, and I haven't even started my career! Ahahaha, talk about jumping way too far ahead. But early retirement is an alternate solution because you get more time to yourself or more control over your time. Look at me now, I get to dictate how to spend my days for the most part now that I am out of school and still not yet in work. But it's still not all it's cut out to be because I need to rely on John for finances hahaha, and that means I'd have to learn how to enjoy spending lots of time by myself. Bummer. If we both somehow were able to afford to retire early and get retirement money right now...that's the life.
In other words, I should really look into setting up a plan for early retirement. That just means lots of sacrifices now for an easier (yet not guaranteed) future. But lately, that's what I've decided I wanted. Guess I gotta go back to studying for Exam P now.
See ya.
...I'm sure there's something I've missed since I'm the kind that wants it all. Is it really impossible to do them all in one lifetime? Just typing all these out made me realized that this counts as a very first-world problem, but since I'm living in a first-world country, pondering such possibilities is not far from reasonable haha. Yes, I know I'm privileged...and somewhat idealistic, but I can't help it. I do tell myself to tone down my unrealistic expectations, and I do live quite simplistically as I write this, but that doesn't mean these thoughts don't boggle my mind every now and then. And then there are also times, like now, where I wonder: are they really THAT unrealistic?
I sometimes wonder if living till 100 years old with guaranteed health (as in no terminal illnesses) would be enough time to accomplish everything on my list. But given that there are so many moving variables, I doubt even one long, healthy lifetime is enough to cover every experience I desire, and as my experience and knowledge bank grows, I'm sure I'll be adding even more things to my bucket list. I suppose that's something only the soul can fulfill since our bodies cannot reach eternity.
So basically the issue boils down to lack of time. As such, we'd have to pick and choose carefully lest we waste precious time getting distracted by unnecessary drama and/or side quests (? Lol, too much gaming and can't think of the proper term) and derail ourselves from our goals and dreams. Even if we were to be extra focused, chances are we'd still have to scale down our ultimate lifelong dreams (e.g. winning the jackpot by simply picking up a random lotto that was dropped on the ground and staying anonymous after cashing out) simply because humans are not isolated creatures with a single function and outcome, but part of a larger network of complicated relationships.
All these have led me to think about wanting to be retired already, and I haven't even started my career! Ahahaha, talk about jumping way too far ahead. But early retirement is an alternate solution because you get more time to yourself or more control over your time. Look at me now, I get to dictate how to spend my days for the most part now that I am out of school and still not yet in work. But it's still not all it's cut out to be because I need to rely on John for finances hahaha, and that means I'd have to learn how to enjoy spending lots of time by myself. Bummer. If we both somehow were able to afford to retire early and get retirement money right now...that's the life.
In other words, I should really look into setting up a plan for early retirement. That just means lots of sacrifices now for an easier (yet not guaranteed) future. But lately, that's what I've decided I wanted. Guess I gotta go back to studying for Exam P now.
See ya.
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